Plan a,b,c,...g (lucky there are 25 letters in the alphabet)

Let me start off by saying that when you, [ whether married or not ] 

decide you want to add a baby to your life, you really never

 imagine that You or Your partner will have a problem. 

And that a little bundle of joy, would become the biggest 

obstacle of your life, so far.

Our story starts off with our first pregnancy being twins.

 Then miscarrying at 11 weeks.

A year later with no success. Our journey of fertility specialist began.

With 6 ivf cycles and miscarriages. All between 5-11 weeks. 

I can fall pregnant but can't hold onto  a pregnancy. Our fertility clinic, found i have  NKC,  [ Natural killer cells ]  which I thought for six years was the cause of my miscarrying. 
In September 2012, i was so Frustrated with The clinic,  i changed Gynaecologist.  She suggested a surgical procedure of a  laparoscopy and a hysteroscopy,  where She found I have endometriosis and it's also in the muscle of my uterus.

 Endometriosis  on the muscle of uterus can't be lasered to be removed like else where, only suppressed. Eventually its looking like hysterectomy is in my path.
So more new drugs to suppress..........nope, i dont think so.

You see, The last ivf cycle in Feb/March 2012, They suppressed my Nkc & hormone levels so much I could not even identify with one part of me, that was me, & results of the blood test on last cycle showed my estrogen levels were not even showing on the charts. Which explains the anxiety, depression and panic attacks. i remember saying i feel my mind, body, heart, all being so disconnected. The medication as we now have found out sent me into a depression that's similar to how women get with menopause + migraine that were very intense. 

Hospitalised with bad hyper stimulation & toxic levels reaching 12 times higher in my liver than normal. Which put me on a list of not having an embryo transfer when i was due. 

But with a lot of yelling at the doctor [ I felt a little bad about this, but, remember, badly hormonal, what did he expect! ] he transferred one embryo. 

I miscarried at 8weeks.

Options given were....some type of insertion of a chip into my uterus. 

more steroids, more drugs, & basically,  it's become a game of Russian rullet.  Fall  pregnant, take drugs, and if i miscarry change the drugs, and better luck next for next time.  
   

LESSONS -- Fertility clinics have 20plus doctors, that's 20plus opinions. Gets confusing when one tells you to stop a pill & another tells you to up the dose. Ask to only speak with your doctor, and only change anything if they say so.
Also, request blood tests every week. And really when you feel like something isn't right. They won't want to & say it's not necessary, but if I had insisted I may have not ended up with high toxins in my liver & put in a state of depression.