If you have never experienced a miscarriage, you will never know or understand how it feels.
You will never understand that crippling loss.
To hear your baby's heart beat one week, then silence the next.
There are a few reasons that i can think of, that a miscarriage will occur. (actually they are the ones that i have experience)
I'm sure there are other reasons, however please keep in mind I'm writing this and only drawing on my own experiences.
I'm not a Doctor, so i cant mention any of the medication that was given to me to try and help sustain & keep my pregnancy.
The fetus ( in my opinion it can be call a fetus until you see a heat beat at about 6-7 weeks, then i don't care what doctors say, I'm calling it a baby from then onward) may have a chromosomal abnormality. Ok, now, this is when some family & friends may say " think of this loss as a blessing, your baby may have been born with a problem"
I must say, that each time i miscarried before the 6 week mark i did focus on those words.
However, once you hear your baby's heart beat, those words stand no value.
Yes, the reasons that i have written above may still occur up until the 12 and even the 20 week mark.
Then there are NKC (Natural Killer Cells) we all have them, they fight & kill off anything foreign in your body.
When you have a very high level of NKC, your body sees a pregnancy, a baby, as something foreign.
Then your body goes into attack & kill mode. Whether you pregnancy is a healthy one or not, it's irrelevant to NKC.
Endometriosis, this can make things very difficult for women to fall pregnant. It grows like a spider web. Most times it can be lasered off, but if it grows on the muscle of the uterus it cant. It prevents the uterus from expanding. Basically to get rid of it, a hysterectomy is needed.
With all this happening and doctor telling us that we have less than double figures for success the odds were kind of against us. We decided my body had taken enough. We can keep trying, with lots of new and different drugs but mentally, physically & emotionally i can not go through all the heartache and the "motions" again.
It took 8 months to detox and even feel like myself after my last miscarriage.
So, after a very long emotionally battle i had to come to terms that i can not carry a baby.
I'm going to include some sites on this post, to help better understand a miscarriage, so that if you need help or know of someone that may need guidance this may put them if anything, on the right path.
http://www.bellaonline.com/articles/art179546.asp
http://www.bubhub.com.au/directory/find/miscarriage-grief-loss-helplines/
http://www.bearsofhope.org.au/a/242.html
You will never understand that crippling loss.
To hear your baby's heart beat one week, then silence the next.
There are a few reasons that i can think of, that a miscarriage will occur. (actually they are the ones that i have experience)
I'm sure there are other reasons, however please keep in mind I'm writing this and only drawing on my own experiences.
I'm not a Doctor, so i cant mention any of the medication that was given to me to try and help sustain & keep my pregnancy.
The fetus ( in my opinion it can be call a fetus until you see a heat beat at about 6-7 weeks, then i don't care what doctors say, I'm calling it a baby from then onward) may have a chromosomal abnormality. Ok, now, this is when some family & friends may say " think of this loss as a blessing, your baby may have been born with a problem"
I must say, that each time i miscarried before the 6 week mark i did focus on those words.
However, once you hear your baby's heart beat, those words stand no value.
Yes, the reasons that i have written above may still occur up until the 12 and even the 20 week mark.
Then there are NKC (Natural Killer Cells) we all have them, they fight & kill off anything foreign in your body.
When you have a very high level of NKC, your body sees a pregnancy, a baby, as something foreign.
Then your body goes into attack & kill mode. Whether you pregnancy is a healthy one or not, it's irrelevant to NKC.
Endometriosis, this can make things very difficult for women to fall pregnant. It grows like a spider web. Most times it can be lasered off, but if it grows on the muscle of the uterus it cant. It prevents the uterus from expanding. Basically to get rid of it, a hysterectomy is needed.
With all this happening and doctor telling us that we have less than double figures for success the odds were kind of against us. We decided my body had taken enough. We can keep trying, with lots of new and different drugs but mentally, physically & emotionally i can not go through all the heartache and the "motions" again.
It took 8 months to detox and even feel like myself after my last miscarriage.
So, after a very long emotionally battle i had to come to terms that i can not carry a baby.
I'm going to include some sites on this post, to help better understand a miscarriage, so that if you need help or know of someone that may need guidance this may put them if anything, on the right path.
http://www.bellaonline.com/articles/art179546.asp
http://www.bubhub.com.au/directory/find/miscarriage-grief-loss-helplines/
http://www.bearsofhope.org.au/a/242.html
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